Well, I’ve started a blog (it’s meant to be good for me). I don't really know where to start off. Just posting information to the whole wide internet about myself lol. But it's not like anyone is going to read this anyway. My life is a complete and utter mess. I am so confused about how to think about, everything. I have been Chronically depressed for 4 years(since i was 12). And at the moment i am feeling really soulless. I've always felt really empty inside, but this time it has gotten worse.
I am use to feeling like walking infront of a car, or jumping off a bridge, but i am too weak to do that right now, or forevor probably, i will just continue to live a torture. But i'm use to that. What i am more upset and worried about at the moment, is the fact that i am starting to lose interest in activities, and i get bored of life really easily. If i don't have anything to do i really get the urge to cut myself, not on my wrist but on my arms. I hide it from everybody though my family knows. I feel like i deserve it.
So i guess this is sort of, A blog of my life before i die, that could be in 2 yrs, 5 months, 10 yrs who knows, But i will just keep dreaming of hope.....
- Daydreamer x
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